Should I just give up (2024)

Thats NOT seven years of failure, i understand why your beat up over this because yeah, it’s upsetting to see others live your dream While your in the very start of it all, but please PLEASE. You gotta understand, those numbers mean nothing, We are conditioned to trust that bigger means better but it’s a disease to believe in. I ask that you instead focus on those folk that believe in your art, it’s a small pool as compared to those big fellas but those folk CARE, and I mean genuinely CARE about your works! Everyone who comments on your improvement, skills, and other kind words. All want YOU to continue onward! They yearn for you to keep doing as you do! Being yourself that THEY enjoy.

I get it, I do, I don’t really know what’s next for me sometimes, I got into art awhile back because I’m still desperate for a good community to make me feel appreciated after so many failed attempts at other places. Everything feels pretty black and white to me many times a day, but it’s all getting better after such ridiculously long struggles, it’s slowly patching together but it’s progress. I can’t recall how many times I’ve nearly quit because I felt underwhelming or like I was drawing against an audience that didn’t exist. But the moment those good folk come out and let me know how they love my works… it all melts away, Things start looking better and I start realizing that I shouldn’t be so envious and turned down by the idea that others have a bigger following with/without better art. All of this drawing was super subjective and there is no perfection, no “great artist”, it’s just what many people fancied.

your artwork isn’t a failure, it’s what you wanted, and guess what? Those people who are your following enjoy it too. They could have gone to many other Artist but they chose YOU, it’s hard to see your gift for yourself but others that love your stuff can see it bright as day. So if those people wanna see more of your art, Why in the world do you think it’s a failure? You got folk ready for more of your creation! I’m envious myself of what you got! For what time I’ve got in this scheme of things, my followings pretty low, but despite everything, they still empower me to keep going. Seeing they’re enthusiasm for my stuff makes me know I’m doing good, I can’t just let my paranoia and jealousy shroud they’re joy, they want me to prosper because they believe in the art I make! It makes them happy to see, and it’s the stuff I like! It’s a good unity.

I’ve squeaked long on but still, your situation isn’t one suffered by yourself, in fact seeing your words has made me nostalgic for a time just a few years back that made me hit rock bottom. I thought it was permanently going to be this way, but no, it’s all temporary, just like those big folk that keep hitting it big as compared to ya. You think they’ll last forever? Afraid not, spotlight comes and goes, I doubt they even like their popularity, or well… realize it. Now THATS black and white.

That’s trendy stuff you talked about? Unless you like it, I wouldn’t give it the time of day, that’s the stuff the spotlight takes and leaves, it’s meant for the storm chasing people, the humans who enjoy a quick work and then it’s onto the next. It never last long, but that’s its point, it can be the worse thing ever or the best for many, but it’s never soulful, just another quick flash before it fades away and the next shows. If you wanna draw sonic stuff? Do it. That’s what you want, Those numbers possibly dwindling is going to get in your head and tell you not to but you MUST do what you like. I don’t know if it’s today or the next, but someone will prize your sonic work. Maybe more so over your other arts. But the thing that matters is that there is someone for everyone. It’s hard to see due to social media being at its all time low in these years we live in but nonetheless. There is going to be folk who like your work despite what the numbers say. Please, do what makes you, yourself. Something you can find joy in. The commission things are tough but they are for literally everybody, the other things you spoke of including the weather, job pains, and other struggles, are very common. It’s tough being alive in general, just about everyone I’ve talked with sounds miserable, I don’t think any human being is really happy with how things are. But the difference is some try their best to be happy and bring it to others with the fact that life isn’t on they’re side.

Everything is temporary friend, Every situation, everyday, our lives, literally the world itself. Nothing last forever, but that’s why we try our best to be joyful in the temporary moments. Don’t use a permanent solution to this temporary feeling, it’s just a feeling, one that comes and goes. Unless you truly don’t like drawing anymore, I’d suggest you pick yourself back from this. It’s a stone in the road mate, your going to feel this way a ton like everyone else but it’s all momentary, the good part is you can always get back up, just don’t keel over and give up because you think this is permanent. It’s not. Realize that you have something that others want, your creations have worth to those people.

It’s going to be okay mate, These moments happen, but they don’t last forever, keep doing yourself and the big things will solve themselves. People will naturally react with what you do and you’ll grow a nice group of people who are oddly similar to yourself, liking the things you do, that small sort of niche. It’s a wonder to see and feel but it’s all real. It’s all worthwhile.

have a better day/night, stay safe and know, it’s all worthwhile. <3